I am: TS MTF on treatment

City/Town: Lebanon

Sexual orientation: I feel attracted to men

About me: Hiya =^.^= *stops, scritches ear wit' paw* tryn to find my someone :) someone lacking what i term social hesitation and is as open minded as their profile says. im in leelah alcorns graveyard, this bigoty little baptist wasteland, like im the only trans person anyone knows and everyone likes to make sure others do as well. ohio is also one of 4 states that refuse to let us correct a birth certificate which outs me in any background check. i need resaturated in a better area. tried to move to cincinnati and columbus only to find there is no community or resources available me in this state. the JFS battle has been going on for 6 yrs spanning 5 counties. i vollunteered just as a long denied employment i tried and gave all of myself only to be shit on by the city i served. yes im willing to relocate. ijust walked away from a therapist whos also trans an who has been denying me access to a casewoker shes dating. im told by cis people its a privelage to clean up leelahs blood off the highway memorial. seelbach can speak over my PA 3xs but cant answer an email. the ACLU here are run by TERFS our orgs are business savy hungry bitches selling out the most vulnerable while seeking funding to pay themselves to do nothing. im the future electrologist who wants to help trans people remove dirty stitches. i claim female because it matches the F on my ID, no amount of surgery makes me more of a woman than i already am, it just makes one feel comfortable in their own skin. ive won electrolosys for both face and genital work, that hasnt happened outside of california, but cant find an ethical electrolosys willing to do what im called to do but barred from doing by the DoH (take an hr to explain this) point being surgery has been prescribed for the past several years and the only reason i cant access it is my zipcode. something like 14 states now cover transitional surgery to various degrees, NY is pioneering a better vaginoplasty why i mention it. but how do i get area specific without obviously speaking to medical care and scaring any would be knight in tarnished sterling armor? i know full well who iam, seek somone who wants the finished product. an yes i realize the impossibility of the perpetual catch22 in preop limbo, odds are ill die never knowing a life worth living. i dunno.i would serve contractually as a doll for a period of years, yet would love to find somone to marry one day. i seek social reintegration by learning my place, the joys and pains of womanhood. most had a mother or peers to socially emulate denied that i need that enforced hyperfeminization aspect, somone to pinch my sides if i ever falter in voice or deportment. i mean they have to be into and willing to help me transition, most importantly be aware that this isnt my highest form. s' awkward preop as i dont want "it" touched nor mentioned, need somone into taking post op TS virginity or somethn,lol.

I am looking for: Good evening, im an artist i draw, sculpt, basically manipulate the physical world around me. im looking for work (real job silly!) a community volunteer who belongs behind the scenes doing something creative for theater. i used to lead a group doing the grounds for the local summer concert venues and focusing my efforts towards the survival of the local opera house. the job markets worse than i left it ,and thats confounded by the lack of employment protections, so if anyone has any ideas? Honestly my calling is as an electrologist, if i can fix somone else i can help myself. also happen to be an in-gender-ed woman, searching for the elusive boyfriend, but with my condition its probably just chasing a fairy tale. see, i'm looking for a straight guy who can overlook my "fallibility" not fetishise it. someone who can appreciate me for me, yet prefer to have me complete. someone who finds me pretty, is a good guy, and lacks what i term social hesitation. with mainly vannila aspirations, i don't really belong here. just keeping options open, never knowing where he may be found... and in the sea of online dating, its a good as place as any, right? there's good people in all walks of life, someone here has a balance of fun and respect, i'm sure of it. who knows,maybe i'll make a new friend , have an interesting conversation. or find a serogate motherly guidance figure, to maybe help navigate this awkward transitional phase. if nothing else its a good place to judge oneself. ..somone to support me learning to cook, play with my hair on a whim, who wants to be close to me,around me.to feel cared for.positivly influence mannerism,dress,overall presentation and self worth.a secound chance no one gets.. have mercy, donate to a trans girls surgery fund Journal Entries: i like someone not necessarily dominant but domineering, a man should know how to take control not only in bed but issues that arise in real life. someone whod fight for me in a systemic way, help me make things happen in both social and physical transition which i must recognize am awkwardly in the middle of; because of which im modable, theres surgeries and wardrobe exploration. so someone whod enjoy not just a submissive, but subordinant woman, pushing boundaries in a hyper feminization 50s housewife project, instilling classic skills and mannerism. while everyone knows rule number one is to be pleasing and available i crave someone whod have interest in helping to develop not just my look, my decorum. like i love learning my scripts norms roles an expectations like "a girl wouldnt do that or shed do this in this scenario", ya know like how to act and interact within society. i seek guidance helping me to be deep stealth so as to evade some form of discrimiantion. to learn my place. think thats part of the awkwardness in that im still learning in a constant catchup game 20 yrs behind everyone else :/ like lota life experiences denied. never been to aquarium yet or woke up to a man beside me, kinda virgin but not.

I am looking for: TS MTF before treatment, TS MTF on treatment, TS MTF Post-Op, TS MTF Non-Op, TS FTM before treatment, TS FTM on treatment, TS FTM Post-Op, TS FTM Non-Op, women, men